30. tommyrot
this is your last one, poetry says
sitting next to me on the couch
where i have managed
to break the cushion in three
short years. (poetry probably thinks
i’ve gotten too sedentary, that
i should get up right now and
hit the treadmill or at the very least
stop throwing chocolate chips
down my gullet, but i have 1000
excuses i can unload if poetry
is dumb enough to
bring up the subject.)
what are you going to write about?
poetry wonders
and so do i.
you know, i say
looking poetry right
in its deep black eyes
to deliver my lines
at the end of the day
i’m all
tapped out. i’ve got
nothing. the silence has
colonized me too
pish and posh, poetry says
slapping me hard
on the knee
tommyrot
you old slut
it’s all bullshit
extreme fucketude
wow, i say
truly amazed, you sound
just like me
it’s only a rock and roll fantasy
29. green eyes
i’m at the corner bar when
poetry takes the stool next to me
to order a proper old fashioned
with bulleit bourbon and
three door county cherries
then starts to chat up
the blonde on the other side
spilling out of a sundress and
swilling a spotted cow
she’s scrolling her iPhone for
billy ray cyrus tickets
with an impressive set of
packer bedazzled
fingernails
you’d think poetry
wouldn’t be interested in such
prosy women but
maybe i’m just jealous
of the easy way they
lean their heads together
and laugh
i still miss a man i don’t remember
28. fossils
poetry comes to me in dreams
disguised as daddy roy, saying:
whatever doesn’t kill you
makes you stronger
then grins like an idiot because
cancer ate daddy up
from the inside
60 years ago
leaking in through
a mole the size of a
bit of scree
probably from one of
the radioactive rocks
he dug up from
the nevada desert
so the story goes
the geology professor
fades into fossils
as his daughter
the english professor
now twice his age
feels herself strike the
deadening silence like
flint against steel
Wake up
27. poetry knows
poetry wakes me up
as soon as the alarm goes off —
jumps on my head with
little clawed feet, coming
dangerously close to my eyes
i hit the snooze and
poetry lies on my chest, investing
each molecule of its hot body
with extra gravity
poetry wants me to wake up
and smell the coffee
get out of bed
go to the kitchen and
see the sunrise
paint the new leaves and grass
a divine orange and violet
with its warming breath
because poetry knows
i’ve been sleeping my life away
while the world turns
again and again
toward beauty
Kids these days…
26. hush
sometimes i fear
i’ll be stuck forever
like a fly in the web
silence sullen students spin
around their still
bodies — a thick not
talking and not
looking that spreads
out to wrap the room
with its sticky filaments
trapped in that
delicate
suffocating
hush
i wonder why
i’m waiting
and then what i might be
waiting for —
let me know
25. everything in me
woke up with the clash singing
should i stay or should i go in my
dream soaked brain (vivid down
to the dahlink guitar lick) and didn’t
tweak to the heavy ideological and
life resonances at first because
as i stretched out and started to
catalogue the kinks and knots that
took me over during the night my
right calf shivered and pulled tight
began to cramp like a holy mother
fucker so i had to stop breathing
and singing and thinking while
everything in me held its breath too
until at last the crushing pain
changed its mind and rolled away
so that the clash could come back
to say so come on and let me know —
dreaming of freedom
24. lawn fresh
when i was little, growing up
in pittsburgh, riding my bike
around the block
wind in my hair
dreaming of freedom
and all the characters
who loved me from books
the poems waited for me with
christopher robin and pooh
in illustrated volumes
i examined in bed, early
summer mornings when
green apple sun snuck
under flapping window shades
cool and lawn fresh
the big attic fan’s
insucking breeze
promising to sweep
the past clean
Is that a poem in your pants or are you just happy to see me?
sometimes late at night
i can hear the poems
laughing and pounding the floor
up in the attic crawl space
partying, wedged in with
filthy plastic bins
crammed with souvenirs
from the dead,
and bat droppings, and mouse turds —
nearly 100 years worth of
august heat, february cold,
dust and breath and roofing nails
jutting in like talons
over their messy heads
they probably drink straight
from the whiskey bottle
passing it round
swapping spit
and smoking clove cigarettes
in their black berets
(pretentious gits)
making fun of the crap
i scribbled in those diaries and journals
aping now this family clown
and that one (so many)
moldering and yellow in
last century albums
on those nights it’s their fault
i can’t sleep, their voices
weaving like poisonous snakes
through my fever dreams
Around five
what if no poems come to visit?
what if we clean up the house, vacuum
the cat hair and dust bunnies, even
spray down the windows, and
no poem arrives to drink our wine
or eat our expensive cheese?
i’ve seen them strolling by
around five,
when the sun slides down to
cast enormous shadows from
their tiny feet.
sometimes they glance at me,
safe behind my spotty glass.
more often, though, they keep
their eyes straight ahead, as if
seeing a real friend, waiting with
open arms
down the street.
They drink Roundup like wine
21. Thinking about weeds
How they thrive in all weathers
choking out fragile flowers with
their scrubby colors, purple
yellow and white
overnight
A rude Morse code
Nature’s middle finger thrust up
despite chemical intervention
back breaking torture
frantic midmorning digging
There’s something glorious
in this insistence
“Nothing gold can stay,” says
the old poet, forgetting fields
of dandelions, constellations
recollected in buckets
by sweaty hands, fingers sore
with thistle down and silver slivers
small thorny hairs of
cheerful resistance









